Thursday, August 28, 2008
I know I have been through it, and I tell myself I won't go back to where I came from anymore. A promise made to myself. So, if I were to break it, I would be really disappointment to no one but myself. (:When I study, my understanding is there. But somehow in one way or another, I’ll feel scared and shocked by the kinda questions that is likely to come out. Let’s just take for example, I am expected to sit for a paper that comprises of Section A, B and C. What makes the paper seems difficult is the section B and C. Why? Simply because normally section B are open ended questions and I have to expect like scenario based questions in section C in which I fear most cause there is like a total of 3 questions to choose from. I need to choose 2 outta the 3 that is given. Section A normally is the easiest to get by just that at times it will be really tricky and requires you to
crack your brain cells. Haha. This is what I realized about exams so far. Like since the time I stepped into ITE which is like about 2.5 years ago. Sometimes the question is quite straight to the point
BUT they will just twist and turn the question around to make it challenging. So its like kinda having ‘heart attack’. =x Lol. That’s why when it comes to exam its hard core 2 hours. -.-
And anyway its really different from CA and exam. That kinda scariness I wanna get rid of now. Like NOWWWWWW! Really. :(
I wanna get back on track so that I will not be distracted or discourage by the surrounding or even the comment given by others. I wanna get my foundation and confidence ‘zai’ before anything else. And that’s all it matters now. I know well enough that after everything that has happened to me, I
was lost. But
now I am found. So I just wanna get myself back and be the person whom I used to be. :D and I am sure I can do it.
In the times of trouble, I look up to you.
In my weakness, you are my strength.
I am renewed. Accepted and loved.
I start to visualize myself as the top student. With the good grades, participation and commitment to my basketball training & tournaments, it will help to reflect better on my testimonial and leaving certificate. I wanna get scholarship that I used to get, the course medal award that I managed to get it
once in my 19 years of life last year, and most importantly Certificate Of Merit. I know its not gonna be easy but I am gonna fight hard in this race. And challenge against this challenge. ((:
All in all I just wanna make
‘you’ proud and setting a good example to the people around me and especially my nieces. :) I am gonna be a living testimony to those around me. Amen.
PS: the ‘you’ that I am referring to is not just anyone in particular but generally. Like people who care, love and trust in me. Like those who will put a vote for me that they also think that I can be what I think I wanna be. (AHEM) Haha.
After what has happened to me, through the storm, I have learnt to be independent,
self love, and slightly more positive that before. So I suppose it is a great lesson to be learnt.
Hey readers, after reading such a long post, how do you feel? Inspired or motivated by me? Lol. Tag me I wanna hear from you. I need affirmation and encouragement to go further. Thanks to all.Labels: A little effort goes a long way. Jiayou Felicia.
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