Monday, February 18, 2008
To: you
u reli dont share much with me but i do pray for u.there are a lot of things that i might not understand.cos i have not personally went thr it before.but you have a God who understands everything that u go thr. you might wonder why is everything in this manner.maybe u have told God that.You are so unfair.why isit that i dun have things that i wan.why isit that i lead such a life.God.y.God is not unfair.because He is still the same God that all of us have.He has the same love for all of us.same access of power for all of us.so it is not how we begin the race.but how we end the race.yes.your life might be in this manner now.but this is only now.how do you wan to end ur race? do you wan to end with joy and victory.or end it in unhappiness. i cannot further emphasize how great God is.He can turn ur defeat into a victory if you allow Him to.He can bless ur life tremendously.God is not a person who jus saves u from the world and gives u a place in heaven - fullstop. no.God is very concern of ur life on earth! He is very very concern about it.He wants to prosper u.strengthen you.mould you.change you.but before God can do all these things.u jus give up urself to Him.love God more.be commited to Him. u see.i cannot change the way you think.u decide if u wan to change the way u think.sometimes it is difficult to change how we think.but the Word of God can renew ur mind.when u being to accept the word of God into ur heart.believe it and apply it.ur life will not be the same.bad things can happen.but u will look at it differently! i dun noe if these are the things u will like to hear.but i really pray that you will begin to be planted into the house of God.because when u do that.your life will not remain the same.our Christian life is full of blessins.the bible tells us of so many wonderful blessins in our life.u can have those.bcoz u are a child of God. LoveFelicia
GREEN is <3
9:40 PM
What would you do if every time you fell in love with someone you had to say good-bye?
What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness?
What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?
What would you do if you loved someone more than anything else and you could never have them?
Some people live and some people die.
But I want to tell you I love you and you are a true friend...
That I will always be here for you when and if you need me...
If I died tomorrow, you would be in my heart forever.
Would I be in yours?
You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next year, and don't want to talk at all the year after that.
So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life.
I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you.
Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will.
Remember, everyone needs a friend, someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this e-mail and take comfort in knowing somebody out there cares about you and always will.
I L OV E MY FR IE ND S A L WA YS & FO R E V ER! ! !
GREEN is <3
9:09 PM
Daddy's Poem
Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favourite dress tied with a bow. Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go.
But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone
But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today.
But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home.
But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees a dad who never calls.
There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats. One by one the teacher called a student from the class. To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed.
At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare. Each of them was searching, for a man who wasn't there.
'Where's her daddy at?' she heard a boy call out. 'She probably doesn't have one,' another student dared to shout.
And from somewhere near the back, she heard a daddy say, 'Looks like another deadbeat dad, too busy to waste his day.'
The words did not offend her, as she smiled up at her Mom. And looked back at her teacher, who told her to go on.
And with hands behind her back, slowly she began to speak. And out from the mouth of a child, came words incredibly unique.
'My Daddy couldn't be here, because he lives so far away. But I know he wishes he could be, since this is such a special day.
And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know. All about my daddy, and how much he loves me so.
He loved to tell me stories he taught me to ride my bike. He surprised me with pink roses, and taught me to fly a kite.
We used to share fudge sundaes, and ice cream in a cone. And though you cannot see him. I'm not standing here alone.
'Cause my daddy's always with me, even though we are apart I know because he told me, he'll forever be in my heart'.
With that, her little hand reached up, and lay across her chest. Feeling her own heartbeat, beneath her favorite dress.
And from somewhere here in the crowd of dads, her mother stood in tears. Proudly watching her daughter, who was wise beyond her years.
For she stood up for the love of a man not in her life. Doing what was best for her, doing what was right.
And when she dropped her hand back down, staring straight into the crowd. She finished with a voice so soft, but its message clear and loud.
'I love my daddy very much, he's my shining star. And if he could, he'd be here, but heaven's just too far.
You see he was a policeman and died just this past year When airplanes hit the towers and taught Americans to fear.
But sometimes when I close my eyes, it's like he never went away.' And then she closed her eyes, and saw him there that day.
And to her mothers amazement, she witnessed with surprise. A room full of daddies and children, all starting to close their eyes.
Who knows what they saw before them, who knows what they felt inside. Perhaps for merely a second, they saw him at her side.
'I know you're with me Daddy,' to the silence she called out. And what happened next made believers, of those once filled with doubt.
Not one in that room could explain it, for each of their eyes had been closed. But there on the desk beside her, was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.
And a child was blessed, if only for a moment, by the love of her shining star. And given the gift of believing, that heaven is never too far.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them.
Send this to the people you'll never forget, and remember to send it also to the person that sent it to you. It's a short message to let them know that you'll never forget them.
If you don't send it to anyone, it means you're in a hurry and that you've forgotten your friends.
Take the time...to live and love!
Until eternity. God bless
GREEN is <3
9:09 PM
Read this, sad but touching.....
Message: can any message be more touching than this?
Daniel: I guess we are the left overs in this world.
Jasmine: I think so.. All of my friends have boyfriends & we are the only 2persons left in this world without any special someone in our lives.
Daniel: Yup! I don't know what to do.
Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game.
Daniel: What game?
Jasmine: I'll be your girlfriend for 30 days & you will be my boyfriend.
Daniel: That's a great plan in fact, I don't have anything to do for the following weeks..
DAY 1:They watched their first movie together & were both touched in the romantic film.
DAY 4:They went to the beach & had a picnic...
Daniel & Jasmine had their quality time together.
DAY 12:Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they went to a Horror House..
Jasmine was scaredand she tried to touch Daniel's hand but by accident she touched someone else's and they both laughed..
DAY 14:They saw a fortune teller down the road and asked for their future. The fortune teller said: 'My darlings, please don't waste the time of your lives... spend your time together happily.' Then tears flow from the teller's eyes.
DAY 20:Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and they saw a meteor... Jasmine mumbled something.
DAY 28:They rode on a bus and because of the bumpy road, Jasmine gave her first kiss to Daniel by accident.
DAY 29: 11:37 pm Daniel & Jasmine were sitting in the park where they first decided to play this game...
Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine... do you want any drinks? I'll buy you one.. I'll just go down the road..
Jasmine: Apple juice would be fine,thanks.
Daniel: Wait for me...20 minutes later... a stranger approached Jasmine.
Stranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?
Jasmine: Yes, why? What happened?
Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ran over Daniel & he is critical in the hospital. 11:57pm The doctor came out from the emergency room & handed out an apple juice & a letter to Jasmine.
Doctor: We found this in Daniel's pocket.Jasmine read the letter which says:
Jasmine, this past few days, I realized you are really a cute girl & I am falling for you.. your cherished smile, your everything when we played this game.. & before this game ends, I would like you to be my girlfriend for the rest of mylife. I love you, Jasmine...Jasmine crumples the paper & shouted..'Daniel! I don't want you to die...I love you... Remember that night we saw a meteor? I mumbled something.. I wished that we would be together forever & never end this game. Please don't leave me, Daniel... I love you, you cannot do this to me
Then the clock strikes 12 Daniel's heart stop pumping
THEN IT WAS THE 30th DAY...
Always love your loved ones & show them how you feel before it's too late.. You will never know when they will be gone from your embrace.. If you were given a time to bestow petals of everlasting compassion & love to your love ones, today is the day. Love them while they are still here...
GREEN is <3
9:03 PM
One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space between each name.
Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about each of their classmates and write it down. It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment, and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers. That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had said about that individual. On Monday she gave each student his or her list. Before long, the entire class was smiling. 'Really?' she heard whispered. 'I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!' and, 'I didn't know others liked me so much,' were most of the comments.
No one ever mentioned those papers in class again. She never knew if they discussed them after class or with their parents, but it didn't matter. The exercise had accomplished its purpose. The students were happy with themselves and one another. That group of students moved on.
Several years later, one of the students was killed in Viet Nam and his teacher attended the funeral of that special student. She had never seen a serviceman in a military coffin before. He looked so handsome, so mature.
The church was packed with his friends. One by one those who loved him took a last walk by the coffin. The teacher was the last one to bless the coffin.
As she stood there, one of the soldiers who acted as pallbearer came up to her. 'Were you Mark's math teacher?' he asked. She nodded: 'yes.' Then he said: 'Mark talked about you a lot.'
After the funeral, most of Mark's former classmates went together to a luncheon. Mark's mother and father were there, obviously waiting to speak with his teacher.
'We want to show you something,' his father said, taking a wallet out of his pocket '
They found this on Mark when he was killed. We thought you might recognize it.'
Opening the billfold, he carefully removed two worn pieces of notebook paper that had obviously been taped, folded and refolded many times. The teacher knew without looking that the papers were the ones on which she had listed all the good things each of Mark's classmates had said about him.
'Thank you so much for doing that,'
Mark's mother said. 'As you can see, Mark treasured it.' All of Mark's former classmates started to gather around. Charlie smiled rather sheepishly and said, 'I still have my list. It's in the top drawer of my desk at home.'
Chuck's wife said, 'Chuck asked me to put his in our wedding album.''I have mine too,' Marilyn said. 'It's in my diary'
Then Vicki, another classmate, reached into her pocketbook, took out her wallet and showed her worn and frazzled list to the group. 'I carry this with me at all times,' Vicki said and without batting an eyelash, she continued: 'I think we all saved our lists'
That's when the teacher finally sat down and cried. She cried for Mark and for all his friends who would never see him again.The density of people in society is so thick that we forget that life will end one day. And we don't know when that one day will be.
So please, tell the people you love and care for, that they are special and important. Tell them, before it is too late.Remember, you reap what you sow. What you put into the lives of others comes back into your own.
May Your Day Be Blessed As Special As You Are
GREEN is <3
8:56 PM
Sometimes we just need to be reminded!
A well-known speaker started off his seminar by: holding up a $20.00 bill
In the room of 200, he asked, 'Who would like this $20 bill?' Hands started going up. He said, 'I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this. He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill . He then asked, 'Who still wants it?' Still the hands were up in the air. Well, he replied, 'What if I do this?' And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. 'Now, who still wants it?' Still the hands went into the air. My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value.
It was still worth $20.
Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still
priceless to those who DO LOVE you. The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE and WHOSE WE ARE. You are special - Don't EVER forget it. You may never know the lives it touches, the hurting hearts it speaks to, or the hope that it can bring. Count your blessings, not your problems. And remember: amateurs built the ark .... professionals built the Titanic.
If God brings you to it - He will bring you through it.
GREEN is <3
8:39 PM
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Recently i'm quite down. Due to certain things that happened and the kinda disappointment I face time and again. But it's okay. I told myself that I gotta keep myself going. I must jiayou. ENDURE FELICIA! aizai.
JUST A LITTLE BIT MORE! PUSSSSSSHHHH! GO GO GO!!!! STEADY POM BI BI. HEH HEH.
Just a little update. My life hasnt been really good. In a way I felt so stress and pekcek over certain things. And its really those little things that makes me so frustrated. Rah. To begin the week with an accusation by that woman at home is really sucha turn off. Like seriously. Super dumb and lame loh. -.- what happened was I was actually out having lunch over at my house nearby the coffee shop. And while eating I received 3 straight calls from just that woman. -rolls eye- first she called to ask if ive seen her pi pa gao around. I said no, I didnt touch it since the last time you allowed me to. (and I actually ask for permission before I take or consume anything that belongs to her) so I told her to check with my dad if he'd take it, drink it or seen it around. After that she called again the second time and said my dad didnt drink or see it around. So I asked if her husband has drink it or something. And she was so defensive and said no. so I was like erm.. ok loh. Cannot be my house got ghost or anyone that takes it without asking or whatever. So being the typical me with my damn clear conscious I said no I didnt take, drink or see it around. (nicely) and she started screaming scolding blaming and accusing me based on her ASSUMPTION. Like so nehneh la. Wapiang. Tell you how many times you dont understand is it? Tsk. And at that point of time when I was telling her all these I was still okay until after her ranting I said.. fine la if thats what you wanna think thats nothing I can do or say since I already told you the truth and you insist. I so pissed until I say aiya ok la. Next time anytink bad happens or anytink lost in future all BLAME IT ON ME, MY FAULT OK. -.-” and she continued blaberring. Whatever la. Then I just listen loh I damn tired of explaining already. Then after that, she happy already cause I was her guinea pig to hear her complaining. She hang up. She called the third time and I was like whatttttttttttttttt. (in a very nice way loh. ROARS) she said oh I found it already. -giggles- and I was like uhhhh. -rolls eye- then she said oh ok byebye. This is just the first accusation.
Sometime this week, my dad called my cousin to complain about me using the house phone on one particular night till quite late. But it was only for awhile cause I started using the phone quite late also and it was around the time when my dad came home. So actually I was calling all my contacts to inform them about the upcoming MCG and stuff. And immediately the next day, sway sway the house phone bill is here. Tada. Its 300+ if im not wrong. Ya so I was accused yet again for using the phone for just that tiny little while. Like how funny? How can a few calls of mine actually adds up to 300+? plus if you were to know me well enough I dont use the phone very often and I pay my handphone bills myself. So it explains why at times im kinda bugget and all. My point is all along and all this while that woman was the one whos using the phone all day long. Every single day without fail. Outta 10 times 8 times I come home everyday she'd be on the phone. See how irritating this is? I told myself not to get pekcek or brood over this. But deep within me I really feel damn screwed. Sad. Disappointed. Accused to the core. I can feel the tears was just there. But I kept it all within me. I prayed about it. Cause I know theres nothing else that I could do to make me feel better other than praying. I submit all to God. I told God all about it. I asked him how and not why. And it just goes on.
Third thing that happened was my irritating sister who never fails to piss me off, irritate, and get me into trouble. Never and I mean it. Sigh. -shake head- every weekend we are supposed to take turns to help out my dad at work in the market. We've agreed on her taking every sat me taking every sunday. And so this week she didnt come home and so that means she definitely wont be going to work the next day. My dad asked me to replace her on friday midnight I was like wth? Super last minute. And I detest it. Like seriously. But I thank God that even on that day I didnt replace her I didnt get scolded or screwed by my dad which I normally would cause of this favoritism that my dad has towards my sister. And to me is like haiya, im always the one whos at the losing end. As compared to my sister. The luxury she gets and the good life she can enjoy. But matter aside, my point is at least she make it a point to AT LEAST inform me in advance so I can make pre arrangement so I can cover her BUT she didnt so I just cant cancel off my plans so last minute-ly.
I had a dream that my exams are over and that ive got really good results. Like 4 gpa again. Haha. So weird and funny right. Of course I really hope that this will come to past and ill be able to get good good results again. :D and I was so happy that the first person I shared my joy with was my cousin. It makes me feel so happy and overjoyed. =) but after I woke up I felt really stress, pressurize and scared. I was so overwhelmed by my nervousness. That kinda feeling sucks. But im not gonna based or rely on how I feel but what God can do in my life in the midst of all this that im going through and feeling. Hallelujah!
Im going to start working soon. Probably every tuesday and sunday. So yeah. Means it would be earning some extra pocket money for myself and learning to cope with both work, studies and church commitment.
Anyway through all this shit thats happening and going through in my life, I know it happens for a reason. Cause God wouldnt allow something to happen without his consent. I may not understand or know the reasons as to why im going through all these, but im sure I would one day. Its just a matter of time. I'll trust in Him and wait for his timing. Not mine. Whatever I sow, I reap. I know that the results is gonna be great. So im gonna hang on, press on and not give up.
Isaiah 40:31
I will wait upon the Lord and my strength will be renewed.
Romans 8:37
I am more than a conqueror
Phil 4:19
All of my needs shall be met.
Psalm 60:12
With God I have the victory.
Matthew 16:19
Whatever I bind on earth will be bound in heaven.
Matthew 19:21
I have treasures stored up in heaven.
"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it" (1 Corinthians 10:13).
God has taught me to be contented with my simple, ordinary and short life. He has shown me the way to life. To lead my life to be fullest doesnt necessary have to be one thats very materialistic and all. Being happy and contented with just small little things is what im learning to live with now. Im thankful to God in every situation He has placed me in and put me through. All in all,
Our God is an awesome God; He reigns from heaven above with wisdom, power, and love. Our God is an awesome God!
Im blessed to be living my life as it is right now. Thank you Jesus.
My exams are nearing. Just one more month and thats it. Ive to prove my understanding and knowledge for this big exams. I really pray I can do well and be a salt and light to the people around me so that I can be a testimony to many. Hallelujah. All that I want is not for my own credit but to honour and glorify God. Bless me. It shall be done. =) AMEN. :)
Do keep me in prayer. My exams are from 10-13 March. Camp is here. YAY!
GREEN is <3
1:41 AM
Monday, February 11, 2008
To be honest, im still not feeling very good about yesterday. And I know that I gotta move on since its over. Whatever that’s being done cannot be undone. I should just move ahead and let bygones be bygones. I don’t know how to actually go about trying to forget everything that happened yesterday though. Every single minute, I’d be thinking and whatever that happens will just flashed through my mind. Its so painful and annoying. How I wish theres a faster way I can literally die. What the hell I don’t even know im so capable of being so emo bobo and even having such sucidal thoughts. But don’t worry. I’ll be fine. I just wanna get over this and seriously forget about this. Sigh.
Went to find liping after school yesterday. And after that went to surprise aw over at her place. Haha I actually prank call her before letting her know but its no fun cause she can tell it was me. It goes something like that..
Me: hello, can I speak to Miss aw mei hong?
Aw: ya, who’s this?
Me: so you’re Ms aw right? Just to check with you have you submitted your forms and also paid up the $200 for your upcoming vietname trip?
Aw: huh? What vietname trip? I not going. I didn’t sign up.
Me: oh cause. Actually your lecturer nominated you from your class to go for it.
Aw: but I never never.
Me: okay never mind its ok. Anyway im Felicia. –burst out in laughter-
Haha. Lol. Thanks to liping keep laughing at me by the side watching me talking to aw. So after which we went amk to walk around, get some food and I wanted to get some honey water but it wasn’t open. And while walking, we (me, aw and liping) saw this wheelchair bound uncle. We helped him to the hawker cause we were on our way there. Cause that road that he was taking is rather steep. And it isn’t easy for him as he was alone. So yeah. We accompanied and helped him all the way to hawker and even sent him back. Literally la. He’s cool. Cause he still drive. Learn quite a few important stuff from him. He was so thankful to us and all. Ha. His name is uncle john yeo. Quite funny I’d say. :D
And now I’m in school blogging but its so boring cause my classmates and lecturers didn’t inform me that there isn’t class today. And I had to wake up and drag myself outtta so early in the morning I was really dead beat la. What the hell. Sigh, what a thing to start off in the morning. Sian. But nevermind la. I think its gonna be alright.
Anyway I receive a message from liping that day. Kinda random, shocking and mushy. Lol. But anyway I do appreciate all that she has done and I felt really encouraged and thankful for her in my life. =)
Jiayou liping. Continue to grow in the Lord yeah? Shepherd of mabel soon yeah. Aizai! You can do it. Mai kia. Overcome your fears and what have you, you can do it. Phillipians 4:13
Im having my pract test two later and after that my HRA presentation and im done with all this worries and nervousness. Rah. My big major exams are coming up in a months time. That’s pretty scary. But I gotta work hard, study hard and jiayou.
Go Felicia. All the way for God!
GREEN is <3
4:52 PM
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Oh crap I just sorta finished my pratical exam in the Human Performance Lab. And guess what? Am feeling very vexed, frustrated and angry with no one but myself. I’m to blame. ): I rushed through it. Why? Simply because I gei kiang and went in to be the first few that was being tested and examine by my lecturers. What the hell. And its like one of the lecturers is not a module lecturer. So yeah. Im feeling all so sad, pekcek and screwed. I know this maybe the easiest thing or rather way to score or unleash my potential but somehow I just rushed it through, mess it all up. Im depressed. Rah. I cant help but to rant and complain. So please just bear with it for awhile. =x I just pray and hope that I’d be fine and it will just be adequate to get by then. Sigh. But in any case I still have to trust God and rely on Him cause I know He’s in control, He’s with me. Though I may fail and didn’t do well but I leave it to Him. God you really gotta help me and bring me through. Ive messed up my life big time. And the feeling sucks. For your ways and plans are higher than mine, your understanding deeper than mine, im gonna entrust in to You. Because all in all, whatever the results is gonna turn out to be You will be worthy of all the praise and Honour. Hallelujah.
Proverbs 3:5-6
Proverbs 3:5-7 (New International Version)
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
And I think I need to grow to be more loving to the people around me. Sigh im still struggling. Pouts. So much so that whenever I think about it, it would reminds me of Gods love. Oh well. So yeah. I need to learn to control my temper and emotions too. Blah! Crap. This have been the area I want to change but it doesn’t seems to get any better but soon. Cause im slow. But fret not. Why? Cause theres this saying that goes, slowly but surely. :P
Jeremiah 29: 11-13
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Anyway God spoke to me but I gotta go now so I cant elaborate or blog about it but in anyway I’ll blog again if im allowed to and if I still remembers. Haha.
GREEN is <3
7:59 PM
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
I just got back my results for my CA. Though i didnt attend lesson but i got this piece information from my project mate. And guess what i got 42/50 which is equivalent to 84/100. i was hoping and aiming for full marks. But i know well enough that i wont make it cause ive made a mistake. And i though i wont do so badly but in the end, this is what i get. ): pouts. But in any case, just wanna give thanks to God cause all glory goes back to Him. Amen. Hallelujah! I hope and pray hard that i'll continue to study and strive hard so that i can be a salt and light to the people around me. ((:
on the other hand, im worried, scared and nervous after chinese new year. Cause im gonna have a pract test again. OH my goodness. Come on man, give me a life. Sigh. Oh well. I just wish i can get through this by faith and really score well to honour Him. After which i'd be having presentation on my final report. Thank goodness we manage to discuss and settle amicably. And good news is that we dont have to wear formal la. So good. :D im so happy. Ask me about it man! HOHO. And next up would be exams coming up in March. And follow by my 2 months attachment. Blah!
PS: i got a TREAT from my lecturer today. And i had banana strudle. Damn nice but sinful. Haha. Im supposed to watch my diet and at the same time save money. Oh wells. I was treated together with huiping, jessica and beverly. Reason being whole class was supposed to do an assignment together in groups. So being the anti social and independent learner, i chose to work alone. We have to come up with this formal report about this particular assignment in the textbook. Handed in today and was examine by lecturer. So he said the best two groups that has the best report structure and all will get a treat from Him. So yea. Thank God for that. I feel so blessed. :)
finally manged to meet up with my dear shi yun after so long. Glad that everything is ok on her side and all. (: continue to stay cheerful and remember to walk closely to God k? Anything dont understand must ask. Can ask me, Hui ling or anyone in the caregroup yea? ;) Jiayou. Any problem you can confide in me. Trust me that nothing will be leak out ya? :D
GREEN is <3
4:23 AM
Sunday, February 3, 2008
To be honest, right now I’m feeling kinda depressed and helpless. There’s so much things that’s happening around me and my friends. So much so it kinda overwhelms me. ):
The thought of you, makes me even sadder. I don’t know how to go about telling you the mixed feelings that’s within me. But one thing for sure is God is with me. And im sure to pull through this tough period. Each time I wait for your reply or message to come but I don’t receive any. That’s pretty sad and to my disappointment time and again its all excuses that I think you are giving. Sigh. I don’t know if im expecting too much or im just overly sensitive. But I really do feel a lot about you. Your life, your walk with God and most importantly how are coping with the things that’s going through right now. All that im doing is in the hope that I can care for you more and that you would at least respond or even have the courtesy to at least apologize. Sigh I don’t know man. Maybe ive done something wrong or anything to offend you but I hope that in anyway you accept and take this sincere apologies from me. I’m truthfully sorry and I hope to build better relationship with you, closer in bonding and understanding you. If there’s anything that you dislike about me or that im doing to irritate you, feel free to feedback or comment about it. Cause all I want is to be closer to you. I’m so so suppressed. Blah!
PS: I’m willing to change in order to serve you better. See my heart. –pouts-
Romans 8:28
Hallelujah! Thank you Jesus. (:
GREEN is <3
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